I never really tell anybody, for the obvious reasons. Made a throwaway just to tell /r/mensrights my story. Seeing so much hope and honesty on this reddit has encouraged me.

The summer I was 9, I had trouble making fast friends after my family moved to Long Island. Luckily there was another kid a few houses down that my parents encouraged me to play with, since Her mother was school faculty. We'll call her 'Cindy'. We played videogames together, our parents drove us to "McDonalds" and she joked that it was "our date". I laughed the joke off and said I was 9... too young for that kind of thing.

Boys tend to be small for their age, girls tend to bigger at the same ages. This was especially true for both of us, I was a small kid and she slightly older, and was a very large, football player sized person. I would guess she had over 100lbs on me at the time. Cindy invited me over to play and I was happy to. When walked up her stairs I didn't see any of her family.

"They're gone... maybe all day" she said to me... She was acting differently immediately. She tilted her head to the side, in a flirtation, I assume. I was dense as a kid and didn't much of it. "Let's play nintendo" She quickly corrected... I have (some sports game) for NES..." I told her I hated sports games so I refused. "That's ok" she said... Her body language changed completely and she locked the door to her room.

"You know what me and my cousin do somtimes?" She asked,

She pushed me onto her bed and got on top of me... I thought this was the kind of 'wrestling' I did with my other friends... I was a good sport and wrestled back for a minute. She pinned my wrists against the bed with her weight but she was much heavier than my other friends... I couldn't move her. I still think we're wrestling.

"Show eachothers dicks and things". She said. (Her wording) It sounded like a bizzare dare to me.

I said "No way, I can't do that!".... my wrestling got a little more frantic.

"Don't worry about it!... Really, if we touch our things together it gets fun." (It sounded more like "feel eachothers parts together" than "touch our parts together". She grabbed my penis through my jeans.

"No really... this isn't cool, this isn't why i'm here" I said as I squirmed.

"Cmon, Don't be a pussy about it... I promise it's fun." It was weird hearing her swear, since she just said "Dicks and things". I struggled more, until her hand was under my pants waistline, into my underwear and felt my penis and balls. I freaked, and squirmed and started to tear up... I was able to fight and squirm my way out from under her. I stood up immediately, going for the door.

"I hear my mom calling me... I gotta go or i'll get into trouble" I said to her. I unlocked it and ran home.

Soon after, I brought it up to a friend. They told me I was stupid for passing up an opportunity to "do it". I've never mentioned it again.

I'd like to thank MensRights... It seriously opened my eyes.