I'm a 16M. I've always been very talkative and have forged good relationships with close friends, however I have a very hard time getting to this state due to the fact it is extremely hard for me to relate to people I meet, I can make some charismatic comments with ease, but when it comes to conversation it never flows. I just can't seem to find topics of mutual interest. However, when I do find them I do pretty good.

I've always been like this, since a young child. I believe I'm an interesting person, especially with all the improvement I've achieved from dedicating myaelf harder to my accomplished sports career, lifting, and reading, I'm more than happy with myself, I'm sexy asf too, but I just don't know/think that what is going on with me or what I have to say will be interesting, not to myself, but to others. I feel like the stuff I share about myself or something that recently happened to me sparks nothing in others. And I've always felt ok with this.

I guess that feing of being ok with myself dosen't drive me to try harder to improve my problem, I also feel way more comfortable and confident when taking a more methodical and empirical approach to things, but social skills are extremely abstract and there is little space for literacy. Deeep down, I know the importance of being able to talk and relate to anyone, and the improvement I'll achieve when I surpass this.