Ok, so I asked for advice yesterday about how to handle this situation. Basically everyone was telling me she's DTF and I went full BP anyway.

She was over, we smoked a few bowls, I demonstrated to her the HTC Vive and we got down to watch a movie. Halfway through the movie we're cuddling, and by the end of the movie my hand is in her pants.

Then I just froze. I don't know. I just... froze. I was fondling her ass for the next 4 hours she was over (watched two more movies wtf??) and I didn't do anything else. She was super into kino and rubbing my leg and feeling my biceps, but... dude I just don't know, ok?

The fact that she was engaged, and I saw the engagement photoshoot messed with my head a little bit I guess. Kept thinking back to the old days and how I would've been so against that. She looked so innocent, but here she is at my apartment with no engagement ring and letting me play with her clit.

We also have a ton of common interests, so I guess I was OK with having someone to relate to even if nothing happened? And when something was about to happen I didn't know what to do, since I convinced myself nothing would anyway?

Sorry, the post is getting longer than necessary now. We're hanging out again tomorrow, and I've moved on from these thoughts for the most part. I'd like to show her a good time and lead a date, but can't think of anything solid. Barcade, swimming hole, my apartment to shower?

My biggest concern is her labeling me as a beta now that I didn't initiate anything on the first night. However nothing has changed in regards to her responses... sooo... yeah.

TL;DR She was at my house for 6 hours and I could've done something with her (probably?), but froze up. Made plans again for tomorrow, what to do to recover from this fuckup?