I can't tell you how much attention/upfront excitement I have gotten over the past few years to just get ghosted/ignored in a 1-3 days. I have been trying to find a "relationship" for about 5+ years now and maybe averaged 1 per year that lasts a few months at most, mostly bc the other person calls it off. I am definitely not perfect, I have my own flaws and am aware of them and am pretty open and honest about them. But from the stories I hear from women, I am def not below average. As women/men, we are (generally) programed to go after the other sex that look attractive/healthy (relative) and all I can say is young, healthy looking women are (generally) 1) extremely confused, 2) just looking for attention or 3) already off the market or n)...

Being attractive has ruined me; I have given up all hope of finding a woman that will actually "love me" (not that there aren't ones that could) for who I am since I have seen the true nature of the way people choose partners (including myself; I want a gorgeous woman just as any other man does). Consciously, this is obviously stupid - being attractive has nothing to do with whether you will be a good parent or what your personality is like or if you are compatible with someone else. I have found women date me just for security purposes or safety - the older/more baggage someone has, the more they appreciate what I bring to a "partnershit." No thanks. I will stick to just messing around, though secretly I wish I could get married and commit, I just don't think it is realistic or a good option given how much I can lose (It is millions+...).