I am 16, half-hispanic, and have autism, recently I have had anxiety over the fact the world is coming to an end due to climate change due to news events I read and its giving me issues, along with the news about feminists.

My dream is to study in Mexico, Guatemala, and Spain, and move to Mexico and get Mexican citizenship and fluent Spanish, but I can't help but feel grief over climate change, its starting to cause problems for my future and goals along with being scared of coming across a feminist.

My parents always tell me that feminists aren't out to get me and that I shouldn't take them seriously and that I will rarely ever meet one but I feel they are everywhere due to the fact women call out other women as internalized misogyny if they disagree with feminism or are not feminists.

This concerns me along with climate change, I want to die together with my 19 year old cousin Daliana, she lives in Mexico and I wanted someone whom I could talk to before climate change kills us all and I felt she was the ideal person to die with and share my thoughts.

Idk, I feel like dying with my cousin or committing suicide, these issues are clearly taking over my life and they are getting worse and making me worried everyday, I can't live knowing my future is at risk because of climate change combined with my fears.

I feel a huge urge to talk to my cousin and get closer to her before I die of climate change, we met in Mexico and we love each other very much, I want to stay with her before I die, I need someone to talk to and find comfort in hard times, I'm afraid I am going to die one day because of the climate and I don't want to die alone, it would be heartbreaking.

What can I do about this, I can't cope with the fact the world is about to end, I feel extremely depressed and suicidal, my mental health has been getting worse as time progresses, I just want to die in peace, not in pain.

I cried in class about climate change and its scaring me along with news about feminism, I feel weak for having no control over which gender I was born as or what humanity did to the planet.

I'm just afraid and scared, I don't want our planet to die and for me to die miserable, I feel like we failed as a species and we are suffering the consequences for doing so, I am not sure what I should do anymore, I feel like ending my life.

I'm sorry if this post might seem concerning or make people worried, I love everyone here and I am crying as I write this post, my heart goes out to all of you, let's love and come together. ❤️