First a little about myself. Long time lurker. I grew up poor but believed we were middle class. It wasn't until I got to college I realized I was conditioned to be picky (and beta enough to think relationships > hookups). I LTRd women who were always richer than me. I got a good career and I do great for myself. The problem is I was blind to reality. I wanted kids and a wife that was up to my standards.I realize I have high standards for people and women but I cannot help the fact that I am also not sexually attracted to cum dumpsters. They are not feminine. They are not submissive.

You could tell me to lower my standards and let me tell you I already tried. I felt nothing. It's weird I feel wired to bang more innocent and feminine women but they're already swept up in LTRs or getting married. It looks like the window is closing for that period of my life and I don't know what to do about the incel part.

I want to add one anecdote I'd like answered. Not feeling anything towards these low standard women reflects how I feel about most people. I'm better than them. Not materialistically, but health, financially, career, more 'awoken' to how hedonistic our society is. I don't feel anything for most people. I'm better than them. I've lowered my standards for people too and I either get my time wasted or caught up in someone's bullshit.

I have no choice right now but to raise my SMV but my own lack of sex is driving me into somewhat of a depression.