Saw this girl was interested in me, got her number ,invited her out for drinks, she agreed. She tried to reschedule but I didn’t want it then she agreed.

I was late 40 minutes(was working on my purpose). Then I got to the place, got some drinks and sat. Light kino, push pull and you know, she was positive with it. Then I took her out to walk and weather was really cold. I sat at a bench. There was something wrong tho, I was pulling too much tbh, was silent and that looked kinda aspie maybe… Then I escalated more and shit and she popped a shit test or a comfort test, IDK what was it I’m really inexperienced, gotta read the sidebar. She assumed I was looking for a LTR(sensed I was beta or something) and it was over at that point. I locked up. It’s all downhill 1000x from here boys, prepare for some cringe. She started giving excuses and said she had to study, she was busy and all that and said we could see each other 3 MONTHS LATER (she sensed I was full blown beta with no abudance). I lost frame hard, it was on her control at that point. I said ”I was having fun, let time figure it out”. Then I stopped responding and just looked at her. Then she said she had to go and it was late stuff and I just went with her to the bus stop. We stopped at the bus stop standing, and I was looking at her and got overwhelmed(fuck im low T big wake up call to lift and get abudance) and my EYES STARTED TEARING(punch myself in the dick 20 times ngl went full beta). She said are you crying and I said no im not(FINAL NAIL IN THE COFFIN). I said I had to go and left, she said “I’m sorry” (RIP, I failed all the comfort test and whatever BIG TIME). Typed this while walking home lol.

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Gotta approach and meet more girls to get abudance I guess. INB4 dnrd. I’m 17 redpilled since 15 (this post doesn’t say so) focused on purpose since 15 and this situation made me want to focus on it 178 times harder. Some venting, I wanna FIRE and retire at 35(unrelated)

”Again in the title”: Last time, I escalated to the bed but no P in V because that girl tried to give the talk too and I failed again, somehow 2 hours into the meet I start giving “beta“ and “commitment” vibes to these girls.