3 kids, 11 years married.

I told her I wanted a divorce, but would waited until she got certified in programming. (1 year) we lived in separate rooms.

My ex found a lawyer willing to throw anything and everything mud related at me.

Turning outside home lights red for Halloween, 2 indoor cats vomiting randomly, about 50 more lies.

She was impeached twice for lying.

She won a restraining order over so many lies (just word of mouth), and I have evidence to disprove everything.

(My lawyer fucking sucks)

The sad thing is, I get my kids only 4 days a month. They all cry when they see me and miss me, it’s tears of joy.

This Saturday, my 3yo started randomly crying by himself.

He told me, dad, why don’t you come home, please come home, I miss you, I want to play with you, why don’t I see you.

My son is extremely articulate for his age.

This hurt me so badly, the first 5 years of a child’s life determine a lot of their personality. —- I won’t be there for that.

You hear about douche dads, who don’t want kids, but I’m trying to fight to see them so bad.

I worked remotely, I took him everywhere, everyday, I cuddled with him at night as we watch tv, he’d go to me over mom when he woke up from bed (mom and I already had different rooms).

My 3 yo son cried for 3 hours, hugging me as we laid on the couch as I just comforted him.

The fucked up part, is I was being rat poisoned some how over 5 months (I’m not sure how,but I have proof and have no clue who did it. (Multiple Dr, blood work, actual bottle of it)

TLDR; 1. She told the judge I was never physically violent twice, and written to a sheriff, but the judge ruled I am. 2. Red lights in October are harassment. 3. Me cleaning a home is harassment.

50 more without fucking myself, but what the hell can I do?

I want nothing to do with her, she has a nice man, I have someone I love, I only want my kids.

I am only fighting for my kids, but she has my home, my income, everything.

I didn’t event get lube.

If anyone knows a lawyer, please read the transcript.