Through the red pill I’ve become depersonalized, my brain refuses to put it’s guard down from the moment I step out the door of my house. It’s like Groundhog Day. I no longer believe in good people, especially women. I don’t enjoy talking to anybody or especially meeting new people. I don’t answer phone calls when family or friends reach out to me, I’ve lost all hope in people. I took a personality test and found myself being labeled as an “INFJ”, I study and read people carefully and I’m quick to judge. I was never outgoing and talkative before RP with people unless they sparked some similar interests and positive characteristics through my careful judgment. I feel as of now, I can’t find any good traits in people around me or whoever I meet & showing kindness is weakness and beta like. What really doesn’t help with my depersonalization situation and personality type is that I also have ADHD, and take prescribed Adderall, which also activates my “fight or flight” response even more then RP & the whole thing is just ironic. I went through a long journey of bettering myself before even finding the red pill. I worked out, gained muscle changed up to a good hairstyle, improved my wardrobe and moved up in my career & workplace but was still the nice guy with no success. It’s really hard for me to think the red pill is wrong however when I’ve applied the tactics and have had the most success I’ve ever had even after all that work I put in bettering myself. I just don’t understand why anyone can argue against the red pill being true. I feel as if humans are no different from wild animals that reproduce and go separate ways, love just seems like a fake fairy tale told to young children.