I'm five months in after taking TRP to heart after a pretty terrible experience. I find myself having an almost constant 'sinking' feeling. It's persistent, like I have lost something. I find myself wondering what the point is. Why work hard, why do anything? Everything is for nothing anyway, there will always be someone above me, girls will eventually get bored and cheat. Marriage is off the table and so are kids.

I've begun thinking of suicide as being an option, something I'll probably eventually do at some point.

I'm not looking for a pity party, I'm just wondering if this is a phase or if this is just how things are now.