My brothers... I'm absolutely broken as I type this. I really want to help my family financially and I'm stuck somewhere. I just had a few drinks and I'm feeling terrible. I feel like i should make everyone proud,I'm craving the feeling of my family looking at me with proud eyes. Honestly that's really all i want. There's this girl supporting me through everything...awalt all you want but. I'm having a hard time making sense of anything in my life. I'm 21 and I've not earned a penny in my life. I'm studying for something thall make me serious money down the road but i feel like a loser. I don't even have money to hit the gym. My parents are getting older and it really sucks to see them grind hard everyday. I just crave the feeling of someone being really proud of me . I've always kept a positive Outlook on life but now I've really hit rock bottom. Don't worry i wont commit suicide because i can't hurt my father and mother but i used to be like a lion.... I'm losing myself in these hard Times....i pray that God gives me and everyone like me a lot of strength to fight through everything.

May God give us all strength.