This is going to be a little long. Im an 18 year old guy. Live in the suburbs of NJ, have around 10 friends from high school that I hang out with twice a week. Grew up in a religious background and my friends are all religious to some extent. I have been not giving a fuck about my religion and wanted to start seeing what life has to offer. My friends obviously wont agree with me so im on this mission alone. I work 6 of seven days in the summer at two separate restaurant night shifts. People at both jobs are chill but I never became buddy buddy with anyone. I have been jerking off to porn for like 5 years (since i was 13) and I believe that that coupled with the religious upbringing caused me to not really pay attention to girls much. Now that im letting loose and stopped watching porn I am starting to feel better (hornier). I am also more on the socially shy side. Every now and then I feel really sociable and just laugh and have a good time but most of the time I tend to be reserved (and i fucking hate this i want to be more sociable but it just doesnt feel natural when i try and force it). I also feel tired very often throughout the day. Allot of my coworkers seem to constantly be pumping with energy jumping around and laughing and shit. Im on the side during this time just waiting for the time to go by.

Allot of shit to respond about but yea, what do i do?