Hello TRP.
Those last few days I've been getting kinda depressed knowing there are few chances I'll find myself a virgin girl (I'm 23 and want to have kids later in life).

But then, why do I care so much about this thing?
I think it's mostly because I grew up in a very religious household. It feels like if I'm not her first then things will not be as they should be.
Maybe it's also something related to innocence (or purity or whatever you want to call it).

Can someone give me a better explanation?
I would also appreciate a mindset. Thank you.