I have been slowly improving my marriage, particularly sex, the past 14 months. Swallowed the red pill last year. Was already doing compound lifts, and I am very active as a mountain climber in Colorado so the physical part has been easy for me. Had some red pill anger about past relationships, which I've mostly overcome - I've simply been applying red pill principles to my work and my relationship with her, and things WERE going great.

Sex has been getting better and better. About two months ago my wife started saying, while turned on in bed, "you could do anything to me" or "I like you in control" or "what are you going to do with me" while looking up with those big eyes. I took the hint, albeit a little slowly, and have been incorporating new routines into the bedroom. But I've been afraid to suggest anal. I did anal once, but it was with a BP chick about 15 years ago. I guess I have to admit I thought my wife was too goody goody for it. I was wrong.

About 7 days ago I told her to hold on tight around my neck, picked her up and fucked her standing. I'm lucky because while we have been married for 13 years, she has great genetics and is only about 118 pounds. We've since done it standing a couple more times and she has responded very well, "I LOVE IT!!! IT FEELS SO GOOD!" I've also gotten her to do things she said "no" to a few years ago, like rubbing her own tits, fingering herself to the point of cumming, etc. In many ways she was quickly becoming my personal sex toy.

So a couple nights ago I figured, what the hell, things are going well, and once I had her very hot, I said I wanted to try anal with her. With my fingers inside her, she said, "Mmmm, I like that sometimes." Then she elaborated and described how she had anal with her first LTR and likes to be touched from behind while doing "it" in the spooning position. I said, "so you like anal that way, if I touch your boobs and finger you?" She moans yes.

So I thought ok, I'll be doing anal with her soon. But then I came pretty quick when I picked her up again. One thing I noticed after that session, something in her eyes had changed.

Then slowly over the next 12 hours or so I started to get that red pill anger in my head, with a mental image of her being done anally by the LTR. And of course she's never suggested it to me in 13 years.

My next move was a mistake, and I know it. I opened my mouth where I should have just proceeded to anal sex.

Later in the day I told her how I felt, that I haven't felt so hurt in 13 years because she kept the kinky fun stuff from me and I could tell she was feeling judged. Then she said she's only done anal once, because the guy shoved it in without warning. Then she said several very contradictory things. For example, "when I said I liked it spooning, I had actually shifted in my mind to thinking about vaginal sex." She'd say something, and then contradict herself 20 seconds later.

It was crazy. This is the most honest girl I've every met. I challenged her and said I thought she was lying. I basically walked away.

Since, she has cried, told me she wants me naked, etc. No further mention of anal. I KNOW FOR A FACT I screwed up, opening my mouth. Just butthurt. I honestly haven't felt so hurt in 13 years, and I'm embarrassed to admit it. Of course I should have just said to myself, yeah this happens in real life, and moved on to doing what I want with her.

Should have simply moved to anal and pounded that ass. Now I've got a problem and it's pretty much my own fault. The butthurt is really on me. I have to own it. I understand that a number of girls will enjoy being led to anal sex, even if they won't ever suggest it themselves. I should have led her.

I'm concerned that I've triggered her ASD (anti slut defense) after 13 years of marriage. I'm thinking she still might take anal just fine, and we might find it enjoyable together. I know I'm incredibly turned on by the mental image and want it. Every time she's said "you could do anything," I think she was thinking of anal.

But now? She might double down and say "no" to anal, or she might allow me to try it and then claim it hurts or whatever, to preserve her reputation with me, her husband. So I feel like I'm confronted with, potentially, a no-win-situation. I'm pretty certain that I can't live with her going forward if she denies me something that she's enjoyed previously with at least one other guy (she had two LTRs and maybe a couple ONS before meeting me. Raised in a small community.)

So of course I learned my lesson and have been my chipper self the past 48 hours. Lifting, going to work, making fun of her as usual. I credit the red pill with me bouncing back - a year ago I would have probably left her. I would have been the hot mess.

She just left for a previously-planned visit with her parents, and I will not see her or our two boys until Friday.

I'm planning to kino her Friday, fuck her lazy doggy (which she loves), and tell her I'm moving to anal right before sticking my thumb in with some lube. I'm going to move this to it's logical conclusion, whatever that is. Damn the torpedoes, full speed ahead.

Gentlemen, please give me your best advice and go easy on me for slipping and being a talkative beta with her. She is a great wife. She was a good wife before I found the red pill. She literally laughed at other relationships, told me how her girlfriends do starfish every other day to keep their engineer (we live in a defense contractor community) husbands happy.

I'm ex military (paratrooper), took to the red pill like a fish takes to water, and she really is a good little find, but of course AWALT.

What should I do?