I’ve been a beta male my entire life. Raised by a single mother and grew up being the only male in the family aside from my grandpa and uncle. I discovered TRP a couple months ago and began making progress but I hit a wall and never made it far enough. Despite reading and believing everything I’ve read here I went against it all.

I have oneitis something terrible for a girl I work with and it’s killing me. We both started working at this job a year ago and I never thought much of her until recently. She’s a 6/10 on a good day but by getting to know her I really fell for her (I know all of this goes against the trp way). We both moved to a small, rural town where it’s hard to meet new people so naturally we started hanging out a lot. I spend way too much time talking to her at work and people have started to notice and it makes me look bad. It’s a small company and I love my job and the people I work with so I don’t want to leave.

I hang out with her 2-3 nights during the week and usually every other weekend. She’s really the only friend I have around here. I planned on making a move on her about a month ago when she came over one night but found out she had driven 2 hours away to see some guy she met on tinder that morning. I started to get over her but suddenly after him driving to see her something happened and she said he wasn’t ready to commit. My oneitis immediately came back. She still talks to him anyway. Tonight she came over to watch a movie with me and left before it even ended because he called and he’s coming to see her this weekend. I planned on telling her how I feel tonight and now I feel extremely depressed.

I’ve backed out of hanging out with friends the past few weeks to see her. I’m close enough with them that they won’t stop hanging out with me though luckily. I feel like such an idiot. I fell in love with this girl and let her change my life entirely. I even got a dog because I knew that would mean we’d hang out more and now I’m regretting that. I need to find some way to get over her and I see her 5 days a week at work so I have no idea how it’s going to happen. I really need a kick in the ass to get me back on track and this is the best place I know of to turn to for advice. Anything will help to get the tampon out of my ass guys.