It’s becoming more clear the harder I work the more successful I am this makes me more competitive and argumentative and fighting everything. It’s not for me. I don’t want it. There is no such thing as equality, men are different to women. I’m sick of being told otherwise. I’m sick of the expectations to continue earning high 6 figures, independently support myself, essentially do a man’s job; then also flip a switch and become a devoted wife with all the traits required. It’s not possible unless I have that support. Edit: I have communicated that to my partner and I am lucky enough to have his full support. I know stepping away from high stress fight or flight will help. We’ve lived in different cities and I’m moving to him to live together in 2 weeks :)