I’ve been really struggling with my mental health. As a man I never get compliments or get asked how my day was and I am always being profiled as some horrible sex fiend who only cares about one thing when that’s so far from the truth. All my life I’ve wanted nothing more than to meet a good woman who I can build a life with and I got so hopeless because I would get ignored completely, ghosted, or just straight up told I wasn’t attractive or good enough and it hurt I became so lonely that I turned to men for comfort because men understood the pain and let me in without all the complicated bullshit even tho I’m not gay In the slightest being in the company of men gave me human touch which made me feel less alone. I continue to want just one decent woman to come into my life and be my person which is why I’m on all the dating apps but it usually ends up just making me feel more hopeless because I rarely get matches and when I do 90% of the time they match with me and never say a single thing or they do then dissapear and never respond after a few messages. With Abby(my ex wife) I was not alone even if it was an abusive relationship and I miss that feeling of not being alone. I want a girlfriend so badly but all the girls I get are either fat and ugly or they are beautiful and ghost me after a few days. It’s really put a damper on my mental health and I just want to have female attention. I haven’t even seen a naked woman in over 6 months and I’m kinda sick of masturbating or turning to men when I really don’t like men to begin with im straight like purely straight but anytime I give it my all with a girl they ignore me to the point I just give up and I’m sick of it. Why do I have to go through this because I was born with a dick while women can get any guy anytime and never be lonely or depressed because all they have to do is exist and people love them why is it I get labeled as some horrible sex fiend instead of people actually getting to know me. I just want to find my girlfriend and start a family with little red haired kids that’s been my dream ever since I was a little kid is to have a family and be happy but it seems like the world is against me