So last night while scrolling on Instagram, I came across a post about Ariana Grande. She look emaciated and I felt bad for her. I commented "Sad to see what has happened to her" and then some 19 yr old guy had the audacity to say that I called her ugly which I didn't and he also commented on my "bug" eyes. Like, are only good looking people allowed to comment what I said on Instagram or something? And of course, he was good looking and had that typical Gen Z teen hairdo (broccoli cut), not that there's anything wrong with that though. But apparently as a Zoomer on the older side who was born in 1999, I'm somehow a "loser" for not having said hairdo.

About my apperance, I never thought of my face as being ugly. I consider myself below average looking, but it's not like I'm a 2/10 face wise. I do have a good jawline and chin area from what I've been told, but my eyes ruin my face. I have negative canthal tilt and a lot of upper eyelid exposure. I look feminine because of my eyes. My eye color doesn't bother me though because I'm sure there are guys out there who are really good looking despite having dark brown eyes.

Where I live, no one seems to judge me over my face. They don't get frightened or call the cops on me or anything of the sort (I wonder if it's my jawline that saves me). Back in middle school and high school, girls here and there called me cute and smiled at me. Even to this day, I've had some women smile at me. I posted a story on my Instagram a few months ago and it was a pic of me back in 2018. A girl I went to school thought I was cute. I was a bit of a hugger type in school, like hugging others mainly girls and some guys on occasion as well. Looking back, I sort of regret doing that now. During my senior year, I was voted most caring student and was even voted homecoming king which I ended up winning by the way. I'm pretty sure everyone that voted for me in these categories are probably looking back with regret now because of the whole pill thing being projected nowadays. I am on the autism spectrum and yes I actually am. I was diagnosed at around two years old IIRC. I guess I could be considered a loser/outcast from that as well if not exclusively due to my sub 5 eye area.

And as for the guy that commented on my eyes, he's absolutely right because I actually do struggle with having them and I want to get surgery to fix that issue. I didn't have this issue or at least it wasn't as bad when I was younger though (I'm 24 now). My eyes were more almond shaped back then and I doubt that I have Grave's disease because my eyes aren't sticking out that heavily. You can have a look on my profile if you like. I don't think I'm a 2/10 because to have a face rating that low or lower my face would have to be terribly deformed, as in my jawline and chin being extremely recessed and my nose being very crooked as well. Quite honestly, I think I'm a 4/10 overall just from my eyes alone.

Okay, so you made it this far into the post and you're probably wondering what I meant by the title of this post (well, part of the title at that). Let me do the best that I can to explain. You know how in looksmaxxing forums, people would tell others to ropemaxx if they don't have hunter eyes, blue colored eyes, blonde hair, fair skin, or if they're 5'3" and ethnic. I feel like that's asinine! Yes, life will be harder for less attractive people but does mean they should just give up entirely and just off themselves? Absolutely not! And the whole height thing, yes I'm on the short side for a male at 5'6" but no one's ever given me shit for it. Then again, people are shorter on average where I live compared to other parts of my home state of Texas let alone the vast majority of the United States.

On a final note, this will be regarding my eyes. This is gonna sound a little weird, but one of the reasons why I am thinking to get eye surgery is because ever since I was nine or ten years old I've dreamt of fame. In my case, internet stardom! You ever wonder why celebrities and internet stars got famous and are beloved? Because a lot of them are good looking. I think I could have some success as a TikTok personality, YouTuber, cosplayer or Twitch streamer (maybe even all four, who knows) if I was good looking or at the very least above average looking if not model level attractive. I know I'd be late to the fame game at my current age of 24 and even a few years from now, but never give up on your dreams I guess. I apologize for the long ass post! I just wanted to guess to get this off my chest and I didn't know where else to post. Y'all take care!