I'm just new to this pills theory. Brief intro: I'm southeast asian, 21 y/o, lightskin, somewhat bulk-chubby, 5'5 height (above avg height here), not good-looking, awkward most of the time when I don't get the vibe of the person, and people say that I have best personality. And yes, I was left by my 7 years of relationship girlfriend.

First, she said she was depressed and she's "looking for herself" that's why she can't be in relationship bec. she might just hurt me, story short, I tried to fight for us but at the end I just respected what she really wants since it seems that fighting for us makes things worse for her.

Around 6 months after breaking up, she called and we talked and she revealed that she's in a relationship with a girl and didn't disclose how long they've been together. She asked me if I am getting hurt since she looks so concern as she cries, but I sugarcoat it and said that I do understand her and respect her.

She's my very first girlfriend and I've made her my world, now I'm so lost and depression seems devouring me once again. I've attempted suicides but I don't want to be in those situations again.

This now sounds like relationship advice huh, but lend me your knowledge about these pills and apply it to my situation, I'll appreciate it thanks.