Found a letter my stbxw of 6 years, 30 days into a live in seoeration wrote to our neighbour somebody I called a freind, and who has a girlfreind! i had made her stop messaging before the separation because of the emotional cheating. Anyways She wrote the most manipulative disgusting shit I have ever fucking heard. Basically, she was writing to the guy as if her freind wrote the message saying "sorry my freind broke things off as quick as she did, she was scared of her ex. But he finally got the hint, and if you have any feelings for her just know she is worth it. She is the most kind person you will ever meet. Here is her number give her a call.

Well I confronted her about it. And you know what she said "my therapist said that I shouldn't have let you tell me how I feel and that I should write that note to see if I actually had feelings or if I was just projecting onto her. And that she wrote it and decided she didn't have feelings for him. He was just a freind after all! I can't make her not be freinds with guys that's her choice to make, especially since she wants a divorce. I was on guard, but she started to cry, and i caved and I pet her head and told her that I was sorry I snooped. Gave her a hug and told her it was ok. Ended up talking to me until 3am. Even though i work at 6am So I decided that I was going to do something I haven't done since the seperation. Check her phone one last time to make sure I was being manipulated. Hoping I wasn't. She hasn't even changed her password... But ya she has written him multiple times per day, has tons of messages written out ready to send. And has made it very clear she is over her husband to him

So ya im upset but it finally snapped me out of the delusion I have been in. That if there is no other guy, then I have a chance with her still. What kinda of fucking man am I that I still wanted her back.

Fuck that!

But I'm stuck living with her and my two daughters due to not being able to afford to leave. And i know I shouldn't leave as I lose leverage. I also know this is monkey branching.

And I know the story, she stopped loving me long ago. Tonight she said it was after our last daughter was born. And that honestly our marriage ceremony and honeymoon was also crao so she should have known then (rewriting history) and ended it all by saying I should get out there and have some one night stands if it would help me... Who is this monster and where did my wife go?

Just really down tonight...