I am in a very bad place at the moment and most of it is time wasted. I am 27 and feel like I have a good amount of experience at least with women especially after taking TRP.

I haven't been with a woman for about 4 years, after my last gf who basically made me a cuck (I was your typical blue pill but probably worse).

Since then my life has gone slowly downhill and I am now in chronic pain and depression and have zero patience for anything. There have been the occasional opportunities with women but I've always been too down, or lacking confidence or awareness, or they were just ugly.

A couple of years ago I was concerned with how long I lasted in bed so I began masturbating with that in mind to practice, I ended up injuring myself and now I can maybe get it up only about 80%, though the cause is uncertain. This is one of the reasons I thought about seeing a prostitute because that would tell me whether to worry or not.

The other reason is that there is an emotional / physical need that is pretty obvious (people have pointed this out to me after noticing). Not long ago I still had the 'honourable' notion of not seeing prostitutes but I am changing my mind about that. There seems to be a way of thinking among medical professionals that men need to get off every now and then or they will lose the ability. True or not?

I am pretty unattractive right now and don't have any money but I will get a job soon.

Best