First of all, I have previously been the victim of a horrible false accusation and as you are all seemingly aware of here, she predictably got away with the horrors she caused me. That's another story but I'm just setting this up by establishing the fact that I'm already traumatized.

Now, I just went through a totally unrelated horrible incident. Essentially, A woman stole $570 bucks from me. Like straight up stole it and ran off with it. (We even have her on camera trying to deposit the money in an ATM). I called the cops as soon as I could to report it. Immediately the cop was mad that I didn't call them sooner and basically yelled at me on the phone. I called them literally as fast as I could. It was immediately tense with the police for that reason. The cop was rude and aggressive with me right off the bat. Three cops show up. They immediately take an aggressive accusing tone with me literally accusing me of soliciting a prostitute (it was almost like their conspiracy minded caveman thought pattern went "woman steal money? Not possible! Women angels. Therefore man must be lying. All men rapist sex maniacs, therefore man owes woman money for sex. Logic! 🤔 ". I wish there was such a thing as a way to prove sex was not had because I fucking WISH I could get laid. Trust me, there was no sex had. No sex solicited. Then they even started asking me where she gets her drugs, which incouod tell was just a desperate attempt on their part to get me to somehow incriminate myself so they could turn it against me. I start telling the cops that this is an incredibly inappropriate line of questioning. I'm trying to report a legitimate theft and all I'm getting for it is accused of wild crazy conspiracy theory shit. I straight up say to the cops " if I was a woman would you be asking me that question?!" And the cops just kept getting aggressive with me. I actually had to tell the one cop to deescalate and go away and I'd deal with the other two cops. All three cops were just terrible.

So basically, I just have been feeling horrified ever since this happened. Because having already gone through a really extreme false accusation where my life was destroyed, this crap with the police was the last thing I needed. It reminded me of how dangerous it is just to be a man. It reminded me that I can be victimized again just like I've known for all this time despite other people that don't get it trying to reassure me it won't happen again. I'm just horrified. I shouldn't have to be afraid to call the police and get help. But calling the cops as a man is dangerous if the situation involves a woman.

I couldn't sleep last night and I just kept thinking of plans to tell my female coworker friend that comes to pick me up and drive me to work that I would have to decline a ride in the morning because I'm just going back into that part of my mind where I'm afraid of everyone again. Where I'm afraid of women and being alone around women. Like you don't know how much I've had to work to get back to a place where I could be alone around a woman without having an anxiety attack. I've cried before out back of where I work because this very pretty coworker of mine asked me to help her get something in the walk in freezer and I didn't know how to explain to her my issues so I did but then I cried out back and had to go home because I had an anxiety attack. Like I straight up have massive PTSD from the first time I was falsely accused and I know it. Im like one of those people that constantly relives a war in their head. It's all I think about. And so to have the cops do this crap where I call for help to report a legit theft and all I get is the cops trying to accuse me of soliciting an effing prostitute? Are you kidding me!? I'm so pissed off and hurt and feeling retraumatized all over again.

And yeah I don't think the cops even took my report seriously in the end. That woman is going to get away with it just like the previous one did.

It's really making me see something very dark in this world.