I have to be as detailed as possible so you can accurately judge me and my situation. Side note I've been diagnosed with ADHD and possibly variation of bipolar disorder. Gonna regularly talk to a therapist now, a psychiatrist soon to diagnose the BPD, and hoping this year to start focusing on what I wanna do

I'm 21 years old, and I'm a very attractive guy. Not just what reddit thinks qualifies as good looking either (lmao!), like a legit 8 out of 10 (9 when presented very well and professionally), I was blessed with great genetics for sure and I'm fully aware of it, not anything I earned. Even if you don't believe for my situation's sake play pretend at least. I've been on this sub for a few months now and thought I was making decent progress but I'm still in same spot I was before

I'm physically fit with a great face & teeth, got great hairstyle and have personal clothing style that fits me and my personality. None of it means shit. I catch multiple girls glancing at me at work and through all walks of life(At my job especially, sometimes it would be a game of looking and turning away before the other fully noticed. I've def caught them full on staring before being quick enough to turn however), and have had a few throughout my life directly approach me (All I fucked up. 1 girl saw me running and came outside to give me some water, trying to make convo but I blew her off. Another one asked me to help her lift some weights off the floor at my gym, I did and also blew her off without directly engaging her. The latest girl I was chasing gave me her number 1st only for her to now have been w 3 other guys between then and now). Aside from glances nothing ever happens between me and those girls, while the ones I do manage to attract enough to start some kind of friendship with I can't keep, never getting opportunity to sleep with them

I guess I'm intimidating to people. I have a strong brash unapologetic opinionated in your face personality, you can confuse my passion for things and aggression for anger. I've been told I look mean and unapproachable in normal state (walking, sitting, etc.), i never thought i had that bad of a resting bitch face. I've been more of a loner at all my jobs, sticking to myself mainly while being envious of how easier it is for literally everyone else to form strong friendships and find romantic partners. That insecurity is at my core the reason for my anti social behavior. I'd rather be seen as strong and confidently not needing anyone else then showing my side for belonging and feeling lonely and risk failing. Sometimes it's like I take joy in my suffering, sitting in it and feeling sorry for myself. A lesbian friend I smoked with yesterday acknowledged despite her sexuality that I'm a really good looking guy and said I must have so many hoes in my phone, girls constantly hitting me up, etc. She wouldn't believe me at 1st when I told her no I don't have multiple girls to choose from or reaching out, and when she asked why I genuinely couldn't give a answer. I don't know what I'm doing wrong when other guys like me have it made and are winning knowing how to use their looks to their advantage. It's hard not to be bitter to myself for not knowing what any other average guy has done in their teens-their early 20s by now (Hell I have a friend whose no prince charming yet hes talking to multiple girls on insta and snap, and is friends with so many, his personality is hilarious infectious and fun, other day almost got into a threesome at the beach with 2 of his girl friends). Her saying that to me made me actually sad for the 1st time in all of this, before I'd subconsciously ignore any feelings of inferiority and shame but it's all I can think about now this past day, my lack of any true gf relationships or hook ups now at age of 21. You could give me $50 and tell me to go out & get laid and I'd have no idea what to do; no booty calls to reach out too, no knowledge where to go look, and even then still gonna be walking out with no one around my waist. I need help desperately, only type of woman to consistently try to hit on or touch me are the older woman at my job who don't bother trying to hide their attraction to me at all until they get the message to stop talking to me. What a paradox being a atractive guy who can't get laid whenever I want. Another guy at my job whose a 7.5 out of 10 and cool/funny told me how multiple girls stop by his desk to make conversation (Even 1 girl who I was chasing for a while and had a thing for me, we never went anywhere), and if not for his girlfriend working there as well he'd be fucking "all these bitches". I know if not for my mental battle I'd be just as great as those guys at getting girls if not more, I'm visually def more attractive and take care of my body/appearance more. Guys I know with not much money still living with parents and not that attractive are still pulling so I know its deeper than just get good job work out etc.etc. What am i missing here? I can't keep living like this.