I was dumped by my high school sweet heart 3 months ago. She had started talking with another guy prior to the breakup which I didn't know about and a couple of days after the breakup she started seeing him more and sleeping over while we were still living together. I felt so down I can't really put it into words. I felt the world was dark in a way I hadn't ever experienced and I still get that sometimes.

Anyways I started listening and watching pickup more shortly after that, particulary RSD Julien and going through his courses in SHIFT, PIMP, TenGame (actually still going through them). Last week is when I started taking action for real and it's been a crazy week. First day was last saturday I went to a populated shopping mall and probably did 20+ approaches over the span of 5-6 hours. My goal was to destroy approach anxiety and the result wouldn't have mattered, if I approached it was a win. Surprisingly things actually went good in many cases and I got several phone numbers, maybe 8 numbers or so. I also got instant date which was fucking fun, my first date ever as an adult.

One of the phone numbers I got I set up a second date the next day, and she was so fucking sexy. I had watched a video the day before with James Marshall where she kissed the girl on the cheeks so right as I saw her I greeted her with that. I think that set the direction of the rest of the interaction, because I got so physical with her. One thing lead to another and she came back home with me after talking for over an hour. My second girl I've ever had sex with and it happened the second day of doing this shit. I never thought that could happen? When I saw her naked in front of me laying in my bed the thought that came into my mind was this isn't real. I feel addicted to this shit now lol.

Rest of the week I've done approaches during my everyday life maybe an average of 3-4 per day. I still get approach anxiety but it's more manageable. It has gone okay since then, but I need to get better on following up on numbers, setting up dates and learning that part as well. Got a couple of dates in order but none setup fully. Simultaneously while doing daygame I'm also trying to learn night game which for me is a lot harder. My friends don't like going out much so I gotta do it alone and I went first time couple days ago. It's like the perfect environment, girls everywhere, and you can just approach. I get stuck in my head though, I got a couple of nice conversations but idk something felt off and it ended up with me leaving early. I think a big sticking point for me was lack of self amusement and opening sets in the club. I just got stifled as fuck. I think having a friend would have made it a lot easier, but don't have any that likes going to clubs unfortunately.

For the upcoming week I feel I just gotta stick with the momentum, approaches every day, and go out clubbing again. This time I will focus on opening sets and just get the conversation started. If she's sitting down, walking by, dancing, etc, try all of them and see if I can hook her in to get a conversation going. If she disses me after a little bit that's okay, we can learn that later but I'm not gonna learn anything if I don't dare to approach. Let me know if you got any feedback/thoughts <3