Hi guys, 27M Asian male here. I apologise if this may sound like a lament, but I really have no productive channel to get this off me. It’s really a life decision to me and I just want to have some second opinions.

I have been single ever since my relationship when I was 13 years old. I have been reading Reddit and almost everywhere else on the internet for the last decade.

I have tried countless attempts on local girls but it just doesn’t seem to work. So since 24, I have started looking towards Asian girls from the rest of the world instead.

Since the past, I was always told that I am not earning enough and doesn’t look good hence I can’t get any girls. One day when I’m financially stable, girls will naturally come my way.

I have consistently reflected and do self checks over the year, and I would say that at this point of time I am earning above the average of the people of my age. I have gone through the far efforts in grooming myself over the years, in fact even spending consistently by the thousands. I am presently on the slight overweight side but I am consistently exercising and have some progress on losing weight. As for my attitude towards girls, I have toggled between having respectful and having a fuckboy persona (of course, I only apply 1 persona towards every girl and I do not switch).

It brought me nowhere. I just can’t get a girl out or even if I do, there is no longer a second meeting. There were multiple times which suicide seems tempting, but I held on thinking for the sake of my parents.

Some people at present has pointed out some of my current shortfall, such as the fact that I’m not earning 10K USD per month or that I’m short (I am 160cm).

It just seems that there will forever be shortfall that stops me, not matter how much effort I put into changing myself and how much I have realistically progressed since the past.

I am really tired. Love is a carrot dangled in front of me. With every step I take forward, it will only bring the carrot a step further away from me. All these willpower I have spent to step beyond my comfort zone is a waste. I am really pondering if I should give up the hope on having a partner and should instead, be spending the money on prostitutes or sugar daughters.

For those who have given up on love, I want to hear your stories...