I finally gathered the confidence to do my first approach since last summer. Although I haven't been attempting much since last summer either, but a few times I wanted to approach somebody but didn't have the courage. It was a bus terminal, I was sitting there even though I wasn't waiting for a bus, I sit there sometimes because they have a lot of benches. And there are women sometimes, not an ideal place though because most women there are waiting for a bus to go to another town or to the airport, and usually don't live here I would guess. But I thought it's good practice anyway. Perfect opportunity arose, relatively hot woman sitting alone.

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Not sure but I think she was there before me. I sat down some distance away. Sat there doing nothing for a while. Started thinking I could approach her. An old woman sat down really close to her but left after a while. Soon after that I walked up and asked her if she knew which gate was for the buses to a certain airport. She didn't know but walked me to a screen. Don't remember if the info was there. I think I said I wasn't taking the bus that day but I would be taking it later that week so I wanted to know beforehand, which was semi true because I was thinking about traveling but I think I've changed my mind. I kept talking about this topic, that airport, the bus going there etc. She searched for stuff on her phone and handed the phone to me. Then we walked back to the bench she was sitting on before.

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I transitioned over to other stuff. Asked some questions that were somewhat personal but tried to avoid very personal things. Kept rambling on. Turns out her bus was departing like two and a half hours later or something like that. I offer her to go for a smoothie at McDonald's. She says yes and we walk there. They're out of smoothies. We go to another McDonald's nearby, they were also out of them or they were cleaning the machine, don't remember which. We go outside and I pay for a rental electric scooter then tell her to try it. She almost fell to the ground violently and it was a bit scary. Then I ride the scooter instead. We go to a third McDonald's, they're also out of smoothies or are cleaning the machine, don't remember which there either. I get milkshakes instead. (regret that now, never again am I buying that shit) She only drank an inch or something of her milkshake.

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We sit and talk. Then go back to the bus terminal. She lives in another town 4 hours away but comes to my town once a month to visit friends. She sits down, I sit down right next to her. She immediately gets up, says she has to go to the bathroom. The lights are out of order and her phone has died so I lend her my phone to use the flashlight. It takes a few seconds for me to start the flashlight. While I'm trying to turn it on she says in an irritated way that it's fine she doesn't need to go the bathroom. Don't know if she was irritated at me or irritated because the bus was leaving soon. Don't know if she got up to go to the bathroom only as an excuse to not sit next to me. We go over to her gate. I grab her shoulder and hand over my phone so she can put her number in it.

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This was yesterday. Today I texted her. It's been more than two hours and she hasn't replied. I don't know if I did something wrong, and there is no way I can know. It's so fucking frustrating with women, I hate it, and I hate women, and I hate her. Fuck her, I hope she burns in hell.