I have been going out a lot the last few months. mostly salsa dancing. I have been getting numbers consistently. but I havent been able to k close. perhaps I was not reading ioi, perhaps the inner game is still lacking. I havent even thought about getting k close. It all seems so far away.

lately I am really frustrated. though I know I am not supposed to care if I score a number, or a kiss. I have met an amazing girl, whom had friend zoned me despite all the vibes we had when me first met... I think it was the window I missed.

Other than salsa, I tried to throw games at work. There are a lot of co-workers that I used to flirt with, now flirt less and less with me. I think it had to do with the fact that they gave me an opening, but I missed it as always.

I cant help to think that most of my co-workers are all sleeping with each other, and since I was the biggest flirt there, but somehow I wasnt getting laid, made the guys thought there were something wrong with me... I believe they thought I was gay or something. I can sense some of them ridicule me behind my back, one even openly calling me names. bunch of haters.

This journey of pick up has cost me a lot, since I have made a few grave mistakes. the rule "dont shit where you eat" should never be broken. If you want to break it, you better keep secrets to your graves.