I created this account specific for r/seduction to record and monitor my progression from a AFC to a PUA as i fight through my AA and my low self-esteem. This is going to be a long read but I will put a TL:DR towards the end.

Background:

I'm 22M and inexperienced with people in general, not indicating that i can't have a conversation or establish comfort and rapport, but never made any significant progress to establish a connection to continue hanging out. I've had friends before but after high school and college I've lost touch with them and have a very little amount of people that i speak with beside family, co-workers and a hand full of friends (4 in total).

I have an issue with low-self esteem, where I have a mindset that i need to have a lot of money and have the newest and latest materials to even be considered a friend so that i contribute to the relationship. I used to have a car but i had to sell it to play for schooling, and that hinders me to meet people in venues or hang out since it would require me needing a ride if they don't live near a bus stop or myself so i can walk. Due to certain circumstances, I live with my family again which makes it even harder to invite people over.

I get very nervous when meeting new people, especially when it come to meeting women. I have a bad habit of keeping to myself and staying in my head when I am in a new environment or with a new group of people. I find it difficult to have small talk, but I love to have deep and meaningful talks with someone that is open-minded to any subject. I haven't been in a physical relationship with a women and I feel that it's an essential experience to have to be a more worldly person. I aspire to be a psychotherapist and i feel that finding r/seduction and going through this will help me better understand people and learn to be a best person that I feel that I could be through this experience.

Now:

I started to read posts and the side-bar with the intention of learning as much as i could, but the most consistent message in many posts and submissions was to Go Out and Approach!. I have massive AA so to see that made me very doubtful of succeeding, but i knew if i at least tried It will be better than thinking "What If". What really help me was find watching RSD Tyler's videos on Youtube, If you are starting new like me, watch this now!.

To begin my transformation into my best self, I decided I need to first change how I view rejection and to accept and overcome my approach anxiety(AA). I learned about the Rejection Therapy, and decided that would be how i would help myself get over this step in my journey. To better prepare myself, I started to read two books that were recommended to read: The Power of Now, by Eckhart Tolle and How to Win Friends & Influence People, by Dale Carnegie. I am currently reading these books one chapter a day and the message they convey is wonderful, I will not spoil what those messages are because each person will have a different interpretation while reading these books.

I don't have the best body image and I want to change that since they way I view my body is negative. I decide to join a Planet Fitness that is near my home and the benefit is that it's 24 hours for four days which mean i can go whenever I feel bored. I also managed to get the insanity workout videos to work out at home in case it rains or i have no way of getting to the gym.

Day One:

Today I had the day off from work and decided that i would begin the rejection therapy. I decided that i would go to the mall to visit someone who works there to see if she still does so that i can talk to her. Since the mall is usually pack i thought that would be the best place to start since there is so many people that go there to shop. Once I arrived at the entrance of the mall into the food court, i immediately started to feel my AA rising from seeing so many people, but soon realized what my mission was and kept on walking. I soon reached the concierge desk where her work is, but she is nowhere to be seen, except only the concierge staff and what i would imagine is her co-worker (HB8) who is working that day. I want to mention that I used to work at the mall I visited so i am fairly familiar with those who still work there when i was employed at the mall.

while we were talking some of the other newer co-workers (1 guy, HB4) came into the booth and I introduced myself to the guy first since the HB4 was helping someone else then as soon as she was done,

she comes over one of the co-worker says to her I used to work there Me: Hi my name is 'TodayWeDoIt' proceed to handshake Her: Hi I'm HB4 Me: Nice to meet you HB4

Afterwords I left her to continue talking to my ex co-worker, but soon more people came and needed help so they were not as available to speak with me since they were on the clock. I was thinking it was time to eject but then i saw the HB8 and saw that she wasn't busy so i went to her to chat.

smiling as confidently as i could Me: Hi! Her: Hi Me: Do you happen to know if 'Friend' works here anymore? Her: **'Friend'? Yeah she does. She usually works in the mornings Mon-Fri. Me: Really is she the manager or something? Her: Yeah she is

At this point I was thinking about how I can keep this interaction going without making it seem forced, luckily I read seddit before leaving (Mostly TofuTofu) and suddenly remembered Conversation Threading. I did a bit of guessing on my part, but that was just to keep the conversation going but it happened to work in my benefit in this situation.

Me: That's awesome for her!, so I imagine that you work part time. Her: No I work here full time Me: So you're not going to school. Me: AA or BA? Her: BA

I was generally surprised that she had a degree in BA, since she looked young and was only expecting a still working on it or a AA degree and i decided to tell her. I then realized that there was no kino initiated at all during this interaction and considering that there is a desk between us, initializing any kino would be kino, so i did the next best thing.

Me: Wow you look young that I wasn't expecting that. That's Awesome! Initialize High-Five She hesitated but still went through with it High Fived Her: Yeah I sometime confuse people with my looks, but I'm actually older than I look Me: Really? How old are you? Her: 24

Now I just want to say this Gentlemen: Never Ask a Women Her Age!!! My curiosity got the better of me and I asked, but maybe she could feel i was genuine in the tone that i asked or how I presented myself, or maybe she's a really nice girl, but she answered my question with no hesitation and with no attitude which is usually the response in my case.

Me: Don't worry, what you got going on is a good thing Me: You wouldn't be able to guess my age based off my looks either. Her: Really? she puts her hand under her chin Her: I wanna say that you're young like 23, but... Me: ** Just go for it** Her: 25 Me: And that's young?! Her: what?! Me: I'm 22 Her: O_O Me: See. You're not the only one to confuse people Her: playfully omg!

At this point notice how neither of us introduced each other, after my ex co-workers are free from their duties so I thought what better time to eject.

Me: Well I got to go Her: Ok Me: I'll see you around

I head back and start conversing and before I left I said bye to them and exchanged numbers to catch up, and then I saw HB4 just hanging out so,

Me: Hey HB4! she looks at me Me: Come Here also with hand motion she comes over I reach out my hand She grabs it Me: It was nice to meet you Her: You're such a mess Me: You have no idea

I was on my way to leave to leave the mall when I just remembered about my rejection therapy mission, so i scanned around me and saw some girl(HB5) with glasses on her head sitting on a bench. I walked up right to her,

Me: Hey there Her: Hi Me: Those glasses you have on your head look really good! Her: Thanks Me: May I have them? Her: No Me: Ok, have a good day

I really didn't care about that interaction since that whole conversation with the HB8 was my main train of thought at that moment, I just wanted to complete the challenge of receiving one rejection everyday.

So for those who are still reading this, Thank You for putting your attention to this and I hope to receive feedback or any question that you may have.

One day I hope to have FRs at the status of TofuTofu or any of the Mods, but "The Journey of 1000 steps, begins with 1"

TL;DR *AFC transforming into PUA through rejection therapy and r/seduction.