Gonna keep this short Red,

I was wronged by someone (No this is not oneitis, not a female situation).

Was clearly disrespected, at the moment did my best about it and people told me that I handled situation perfectly without getting my hands dirty.

Recently saw that person again and that look on their face that says "I am better than you, I won", doesn't leave my mind. I have deep anger inside of me that comes out at random times during the day when I imagine bashing their head with a fucking rock and fantasize about how I would beat the shit out of them if I could. I am trying to take it out in the gym, currently meditating (Wim Hof) and being patient for when my time comes. Also reading "Nine Laws" to internalize certain mindset and world view.

But I understand how unhealthy and tiresome this is. This anger gives me fuel to make myself better than ever before and I am trying to utilize it to the fullest, but the dark side is that it is destroying me mentally inside and damaging my relationships with people since I am constantly on edge.

My actions come from scarcity and feeling powerless rather than from abundance and trying to empower others through empowering myself.

Any real advice?