I just had an epiphany... I feel terrible. It's a powerful kind of feeling, something empowering me.

Even though she said she was tired, I realize the girl I have been one-itising over just wanted somebody more alpha than myself, somebody to give her some quick sex. It feels awful. This is life though.

I was thinking about how terrible the system is, that so much of our self esteem hinges on the several moments we have in our interactions with others. So many women out there need a guy to validate their existence, and so many guys need a woman to do the same, yet it's all dependent on how you dress, how you talk, ect. This is life though.

Yet, so many of the people around us judge us negatively, look at us wrong because we espouse a lifestyle that considers these things to be normal. We have a mindset that you must earn these things instead of caving into desperation. Is it even fair for you to feel like maybe you shouldn't do this because others may think of you differently? Or to think, "I don't think I want to go out and meet people because, well, I've done it already this week and I should have other hobbies..."

Nobody has the right to tell you that what you're doing is wrong.