Ahhhhh. And we learn our lessons. I guess I can be proud of myself. But I have this weak ass defeated feeling.

I had a hookup from a club, then followed up with a day-2 date and told her about my open relationship. She then proceeds to spend another $35 dollars (zipcar) on top of the $30 she had already spent to stay the night with me. But then she just called me (5 days later) and said it was too complicated. I was really excited to start a new connection with another person.

I asked her if she wanted me to call her again or if this was it. She gave me a really unclear answer, so I said I'd call her later. I think I got serious on her a little too fast. I don't know.

Fuck I lack abundance. I just came here to say (deep breath): on to the next.