Sup homies I'll try to keep this as concise as possible but I'm going to be throwing a lot of info at you so you can hopefully point out where I went wrong and how to get back in my zone.

The beginning

Let me start by saying I struggled with girls more than probably 80-90% of you, I'm 25 and until 2012 I had only slept with 1 girl who was a manipulative cheating ex that played me hard and slept with many guys behind my back..these were my most beta days. Since then I haven't really been AFC I'm actually pretty cool, hang around with a diverse and active social group, I do have at least a clue with women (I'm not the typical nice guy, I'm funny cocky etc) and though I am short I do have the advantage of being (as modestly as I can say this) pretty damn good looking. Despite this I did not get laid or even go on a single date for an entire year after me and my ex broke up due to an extreme fear of asking girls out... Even to this day I have never asked a girl out in person only online.

The middle - the accelerated journey where it all started to click.

Like I said, even though I had very limited success with women, I did at least have a clue.. I just couldn't get a date for the life of me. That changed this February when I got a POF account. I quickly met a surprisingly cute girl on there, we went out twice in a week and that weekend she drunk texts me asking if I'm dtf and she thinks I'm sexy as *..we met later the next week and I bang the hell out of her on her moms bed. This gave me a huge confidence boost because after the second date I thought the girl wasn't into me.. I hadn't even kissed her because I thought she wasn't into it and it turned out she wanted to * me all along. I started thinking **** maybe every girl is into me and I just don't realize it.

Turns out the 1st girl thought I was cool but she only wanted a 1 night stand, the same week I met another girl on POF. I thought she was a crazy hoodrat at first but we hung out a few times and we really clicked... I doubted things again and was scared to kiss her, but she soon let me know she wanted me bad and was desperately waiting for me to make my move (she texted this after our 4th "hangout"). This sent my confidence soaring because it had confirmed what I had theorized earlier. I *ed her the next day. I met 2 more girls from POF and to make a long story short I *ed both of them but instead of waiting to kiss them I maned up and did it as soon as I felt like it. All the while the second girl I met and me were hanging out a LOT at least twice a week, we really got along.

It felt great I felt like I had gold bars dangling from my sack. I had this quite confidence and swag about me that just felt so amazing, finally all the stuff I had been reading online all clicked. I knew i was desired, i knew women were nothing to be feared and that they wanted a real man like me to **** them. I absolutely felt no need or attachment to any of these girls but at the same time enjoyed their company and enriched their lives. They were all crazy about me, I wouldn't respond to texts for hours and as soon as I did they would be all over me. I haven't asked out anymore girls but felt like there was nothing stopping me. I told them I wanted them to meet other people also when they went out and all of them told me they were all about me.I spent less time even worrying about girls, I was more concerned with work and school.. Girls were just stress relief. I LOVED how this felt.

The end - how far I have fallen.

Girl 2 starts getting attached and so does girl 3. Girl 3 is a lot prettier but I like girl 2 way more. Girl 2 tells me she would be sad if I was seeing someone else, one night we had dinner and cuddled and really bonded and said all types of sweet **** to each other. Now I felt conflicted, I didn't want to lead on this girl I was starting to care about but I didn't want to lose my playerness I was just getting a grasp of. So I made my first big mistake I half heatedly broke up with her.

I miss her and she misses me and we met to talk a few times, I'm still seeing girl 3 but I really feel nothing for her. Finally me and girl 2 get in a big fight and I really regret it. I'm left with only girl 3. I keep trying to patch things up with 2 and she starts playing games... She tells me she still cares for me and wants to make things work but then doesn't respond to texts for days at a time and the. Says her phone was dead ( but she keeps making twitter updates with mobile so it's a lie) I get more and more need, now I respond right away and she takes hours to reply... Also from her twitter it seems like she met a new guy but she keeps telling me she still wants to try and fix things. I become more needy and take it out on girl 3... I start calling her sweetly etc telling her she is amazing, she quickly goes from being all about me to suddenly seeing a new guy and we should just be friends. Now here I am I feel like **** worrying about who's dick girl 2/3 are sucking when I used to actually request for them to meet others. The texting game is still going on with girl 2 and I miss her a lot but I haven't even seen her in over a month. I don't feel that same swag within me.

How can I get back to where I fell from and stay there next time?