I will spare you the story. All you need to know is I got sexual guilt (whenever I approach I feel sort of bad about it) even though I am an atheist and totally sex positive. Also, when I was young, I essentially got mega burned in the worst possible way, and was humiliated in front of many women.

Between the mixed feelings and run ins with truly pernicious women, I am sort of fucked. And the the worst part is that I am good at parties and at entertaining large groups of girls, but I always feel like I have to distance myself, and have never been able to bridge the gap.

Still a virgin, and the last time I kissed anyone I was 17. I don't mean to act all woe-is-me but I need some help.