nearly 22, been reading and integrating pick-up into my life for the last year and a half. It is finally clicking.

So I was an AFC most of my life. Didnt lose my virginity until I was near my 20th birthday. Then had a girlfriend for half year but she was cheating on me behind my back.

Since her, I have had sex with 4 girls in the last 6 months and it is getting so easy now. I read "The Game". "the power of now", "a new earth", "the art of seduction', perfected my inner game. I know 4 in 6 months doesn't sound like a lot but I wasn't really trying for much of that time because I was heartbroken.- and when I try and fail now, i don't get butt hurt or suffer one-itis, I just move forward. I feel in tune with body language, I am calibrated to see when a girl is actually interested, and not just using me to inflate her ego. I truly feel fucking confident about my ability to get hot girls. (other reason my count is low: I only try way above my pay-grade, so to speak).

Now this week was my efforts have been so successful. An old fuck buddy wanted me so badly when I whispered in her ear on the bus home, even though she had a boyfriend. The girl I saw over the summer called me tonight and I was so smooth talking we mutually masturbated because I couldnt go over there and have sex. I had sex with my hot friend last night, and my neighbor girl wants to fuck me. It is finally happening, and I feel disgusted with myself because I have no emotional grounding in anything anymore. I just say the same things to these girls, once I type cast them, and it works. It works too well.. you make them feel sexy and primally desired, but don't bend over for them and make them work for it, and their panties are off. BUt last night as my friend and I were sleeping together and she stroked my hand in an act of intimacy, or when my summer fling was masturbating to me "kissing her everywhere" tonight, I realized in these girls'imaginations I was more than this cad. I feel nothing anymore, I haven't since my gf broke my heart. and I fill up my life with sex and masturbation and porn. I think I should stop pick up.

Thoughts welcome.