I swallowed the pill a few months ago, and since then I have been working on not giving a fuck and not putting women on a pedestal. I have since been receiving tons of IOIs from girls, this one in particular, we’ll call her S.

She is this HB7, cute face, small tits, huge ass and I’ve been seeing her for about two weeks. Every time we have hung out prior to the last she’s been hesitant about sex, so we’ve just made it to second base with some heavy foreplay. She has been giving me some shit tests and trying to get me jealous but I’ve been passing with flying colors and it’s only made her want me more.

This last time, she decided she was ready for sex. Now keep in mind she was only my third lay, and my first since almost a year ago. Things were hot and heavy and I was playing with her pussy then I told her to suck my dick and it was completely flaccid. She played with it for a minute or so and I couldn’t get it hard. It was actually even smaller than it normally was when flaccid, almost like a fight or flight size.

Anyways I told her it was because of the alcohol and that I was a little under the weather and she seemed okay with it. I still was able to make her cum with my fingers and mouth.

Today, she was doing the same shit trying to get me jealous by sending me snaps with her chilling with other guys. Only this time, I felt a pit in my stomach. What if she’s sleeping with them and they are fucking her better than I could? I felt the same bluepill tendencies I had experienced before. I haven’t acted out on these bluepill tendencies to her, so they’re all in my head. The only thing is that I’m nervous to contact her again because I might exhibit bluepill behavior, and I might not get hard again because it will seem like a “test” of my manhood.

Any advice on how to not give in to this girl and to maintain both internal and external frame? Also if there are any tips with my ED those would be greatly appreciated as well.