Hey Everyone, here's my life and i don't know and Am very confused where to start here in seddit

-Attended an all boys school years 14-17. Minimum/rare contact with girls

-got my first kiss sophomore year through a mutual friend of friends and was forced(awkwardness) into kissing this girl (16)

  • lost my virginity to a girl, behind Krauszers (retail store),I don't really know but had sex plenty of times over the same summer. Every time we both were absolutely wasted (18). I seriously, no joke, fucked her behind a Krauszers a block away from my friend's house at 1am high off weed and drunk of jack daniels. All it took was me fb IMing her 4am drunk a week before and texting her that same night I was in her town. No contact of text of facebook in between the time. Five minutes after her friend dropped her off with me we fucked.

-first year of college fucked an easy slut who wanted my D after a week of talking who was ugly and had disgusting habits.

I've read up on body language and have read some of the Tao of Badass because I was desperate. They offer some good banter but honestly since then I haven't even had a hook up.

I realized besides my virginity, all the girls i hook up with or have sex take control(except hook ups in a few instances). And now I hang onto girls i already had sex with. I started NoFap to man up and get better.But I've already had thoughts of calling up that girl I lost my V-card to this summer and see if she wants some beers and fuck.

Also been clean of weed and hard liquor for 6 months.