I just can't get over this, everyday I wake up I just have suicidal thoughts. I can't fucking function at all. I feel like I missed out on so much. I want to start taking action though, I'm 21 years old how can I start living the youth I never had? Should I just move to LA and act like a skater teenager like Jonah Hill? He's 34 acting like he's some skater kid teenager I guess he is trying to live out his youth to. Just wondering what I can do to start having some sort of youth now.