Hey all, I had a post or two here frankly being a whiny bitch. I thought everything was wrong with me. Why am I naturally terrible socially? Why wasn't I 6'5"? Why wasn't I born with a 17" dick? Why are my legs short? Why can't I naturally have a six pack?

Why, why, why.

This plagued me. It haunted my every thought, and was always in the back of my mind, killing my confidence before it even had a shot at life.

I'm a big guy, but for w/e reason I always get lots of attraction, women open me regularly! Friends tell me I have a commanding presence, and people "feel" when I enter a room. As a guy with like, no confidence, I was confounded. But I've had women I'd consider 2x out of my league hit on me, and how did it make me feel? Like a bitch. Like a flat out, bitch.

I was terrified you see. Terrified of making the wrong move so much I refused to make any move at all.. I'm not saying I have gorgeous women all over me all the time but I've had a few great looking ladies end up very disappointed by my lack of interest.. I even made a post here about internally rolling my eyes when women seek compliments.. I didn't know the whole time it wasn't that I hated their seeking approval, but it was that I was paralyzed with fear, terrified of failure, terrified of having to whimper off and lick my wounds, terrified of looking like an ass in a room full of people at a party.

I sabotaged myself for years.. And I can't get back those lost opportunities. But I can learn from them, if I acknowledge what was done wrong.

I've actually had several successful dates since lurking here, and confronting my fear of failure. I've learned a 'lil about everything, Im more comfortable with Kino, I'm comfortable noticing signs and signals which I was 110% oblivious to, I'm less afraid to take chances and my 'inner game' is noticeably better.

I know you guys hate sappy ass 'thank you' posts, but idgaf. Thanks for all the wealth of information here. You guys rock.