Hello everyone, hope you are all doing well.

Recently have run into quite a strange situation with women and what I want out of life. Here is the essential premise I have realized over the past couple days.

1.) I am sick of caring about others and not expressing how I truly feel and being myself

2.) This realization that I should not care about others has made me realize how much I am missing out on the interactions with others because I am so self-conscious and overthink everything.

3.) Now that I have realized what I am missing out on and how I have been limiting potential I want to test myself and push myself and try new things I have never tried before which leads to...

4.) Pressure. Now I realize what I want out of life and I want women because I have never been very good with them so I want to figure out how I can have more experiences with women. Be it sex, relationships, whatever.

Now the crux of this post. Because I now know what I want I am determined to fulfill my goal and figure out the best way to accomplish it as soon as possible. You could call me a bit of an anxious perfectionist. BUT because I want to accomplish these things so bad and finally land a girl and have lots of experiences (relationships, sex, fun moments) I put soooo much PRESSURE on myself which totally fucks up my confidence which is a key thing with women.

It's kind of fucked honestly. I want to better myself and fix my problems with anxiety and with women but by in doing so I care about every situation 200% more as if its indicative of the rest of my life.

I have traditionally done decent in school until this quarter. Life has just been fucking me up lately. I really like having a good body and I go to the gym often and I would say I look decent and I love making music as well. Those are the only two things I can say I actually care and think about besides my social life and analyzing situations.

TL:DR My question for you people is: How do you pursue relationships with women and people but also not get so stressed about it? It's obviously important to you but you can't let it be too important otherwise your clingy and a girl can pick up on that easy. Tough balance I am curious how you all handle it.

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Thanks.

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