So after putting quite a lot of notches on my bedpost, I started feeling a bit bored with new lays and things began seem repetitive. At the same time, I also experimented a bit with paying to play and it made me wonder a bit about the purpose of gaming. If I could just go to the Philippines or Thailand and pay to sleep with an HB 8-9 why care about gaming? If looks are no longer so valuable, what is? At this point, I couldn't differentiate well between sleeping with a new mediocre, or even hot girl from a club/bar, and paying to sleep with a girl for one night. It felt a bit unnerving, almost as if seducing women wasn’t worth my time anymore. I was having a hard time defining “quality” what was truly valuable to me with regards to sex and women.

After some deep thought on the subject and a bit more experimentation with various things, I came to a realization. At the point I had reached, there really was not much difference between sleeping with a mediocre or even hot girl just to get off or get a notch, and paying a prostitute. So I tend to give them equal value and as such don't let either of them consume my time or libido. Instead, I use gaming to enrich my life and help me find women that are my true goal as a man. I set for myself criteria which keep things exciting and meaningful. These are my main criteria:

  1. New and enriching experience that I haven't yet had and want to have. (examples were: a threesome, black girl, much older woman, etc..)

  2. Cool and interesting person I like spending time with and learn from.

  3. Push my limits in experiencing and determining what I consider physically beautiful and attractive

  4. Sexual Chemistry

As an example, a mediocre girl from the club that has fairly bland personality won’t really fulfill any of these criteria the majority of the time. If I am really lucky she might provide amazing sex through sexual chemistry. Paying to play is in the same boat but worse. I have essentially replaced obtaining value purely from looks and getting another notch, with my own version of what is important to me. Hope this is useful for others faced with such a situation.