it's haunting me , it really is . i'm 17 years old , have some introvert behavior , i wouldn't call it social anxiety but that's who i am , i like solitude . first off , i got to say , something , i have some girl friends , and later on you'll understand how this makes things worst !

I dreamt last night , dear people of this subreddit , that i opened my facebook account which is where all the people i know hang out , this is the place where it matters for them , this is their image , this who they are and i never gave a shit about social media but just yesterday i dreamt that i opened my fb account i had this current of messages from girls , some of them were my friends , and they were needy , coming on to me , as if i was A PRIZE they were all fighting for . I want that , i want that so fucking bad , i hat the fact that i'm not that guy . i'm the supplicating , friendly little bitch . i want to be looked at that way . and i have no clue where to start or what to do . my only desire now is to become that guy or that person who's unreactive , who has a flee of girls going wet just hearing his name , i mean seeing these friends of yours , the girls , just wooing over some fucking guy you know ain't shit , you ask yourself why can't that be me ? am i missing a ball or two ? Help me almighty redditors , i wanna be THAT person . i'm ready to do whatever what .