Hi guys,

I am really struggling to make big changes with myself. I recently got out of a long term relationship. I feel that this my opportunity to fucking change things up and improve myself to the best of my ability. During this process I also want to be able to feel comfortable enough to talk to women anywhere. I have been having some success in attracting women with my energy. My problem is alcohol and drugs. My usage does not occur on a daily basis. It's more like every time I go out my mind tells me I need some kind of stimulation or intoxicant to feel confident enough to kick ass. The thing is I think I have the potential to do much better without these things. On top of this I have mental issues such as anxiety and depression. These things do not have a such a strong hold on me as it did when I was younger, but it is something that lingers and definitely affects my ability to fucking succeed and learn to love myself.

When I go out at night I am under the influence of one of these things. They can help, but I don't want to be dependent on these things. I want be the kind of guy who can go in and slay sober. So my question is to those of you that might have had this problem with drugs, depression, and alcohol how did you deal with it? I understand many of you will say "Well just stop doing drugs and drinking alcohol." So yes I need to do this. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to best achieve this goal. Has anyone had this problem? I am really eager to fucking do this shit. I want to meet women and have a fucking blast without these fucking shitty substances and this fucking mind that is telling me that I will never accomplish this goal. Guys, I am sick and tired of this shit. I really need help here. Any comments will be appreciated. Someone challenege me. Someone tell me to pick it up. Anything guys. Thanks for reading.