My girlfriend, well, ex girlfriend was a controlling and manipulating woman. And I didn't realize it because I was scared of being alone. I had lost who I was to her will. I became weak and did everything she wanted me to do. I wasn't fun anymore. I didn't hang with friends. I lost friends. But I one day woke up, last Sunday, and told myself NO MORE! I had laid out issues in the past but I apologized about it later and went back to my weak willed ways. But not anymore. I am done with that. I miss being me. I miss meeting random people and making new friends or fuck buddies. Whatever. I miss being happy and I miss being my confident self. I just started reading Models and I'm on my way to being back to who I was. I can't wait to read everything in here and such. No more Mr. Nice guy. It's my way or scram. I can't wait to meet new people. But I most importantly can't wait to be me again. No more bending to anyone's will. 2015 is my year!