Since 12 years old, I always imagined how my life would be when I grow up. I always thought when you grow up you do cool stuff and get girls.

I saw in movies where guys have nice bodies, i wanted one, I was little fat kid. I saw where guys talk to women freely, I thought I was gonna become the same.

But now I am 18 years old where I stay silent in most environments, feel scared and insecure inside. Where I lack social skills so much, I lost weight though. Thank god it is something good.

My whole life guys was spent on video games, I live in small town near small city population over 50k. I spent my whole life playing video games expecting my life will be awesome when I grow up. When my friends were going out having fun socializing, I was playing bullshit things at home. I had no friends.

Finally at the age of 17 I woke up, I realized I needed to change, I must change. If I continue this way I would become those kind of guy I hated my whole life, I hated insecure and nerdy guys, but I became one, I wasn't aware I was becoming. I made a close friend and started socializing, It was hard since I had 13 years old social skills at age 17. Playing only video games makes you lack social skills.

Any way school ended and I became friendless again, I managed to join back to my primary school friends group. Where I can't talk freely to them and still avoid being judged. They are all confident guys, dominant types, typical pua kinda types but they dont approach nor pickup.

Maybe in bigger city where not everyone knows and gossip about everyone. I am having very hard times when I hang out with them, I feel lots of pain and stuff, but I should do it anyway, this is part of change. This must happen, you get better and change yourself if you don't do same things you were doing before.

The lesson of my true story is, if you want to change, you MUST change what you do. I played 7 years video games non stop, and expected to become awesome, world doesn't work that way. So if you expect become good at pickup, you must approach because that is most primary thing to become pua.

You must do pua things to become pua, you can dream and fantasize in your head how much you want, but it will never become reality if you don't take action. Pain and butt hurt will remind you that you are doing progress.

Start today and become what you want.