I wanna touch in my situation right now, and if possible get some advice about getting through and maybe upgrade my views.

I have been a video game nerd for long time, from age 9 to age 17 I was playing video games constantly every single day. I lack some social understanding and experience. 1 year ago I wanted to change this and have some friends.

Which i succeeded, I have a friend group that I hang out with every day. I am hanging out with them for 4 or 5 months. Some of them are my primary school friends. By the end of high school I wasn't going to get around people, so this made me wake up and make some friends.

I am not a social retard but, I struggle to express my thoughts fully, I am a crazy guy who talks bullshit around friends I like. Before highschool end I had one close friend and being close with someone made very good impact on me, I transformed my self from quiet guy to funny and very talkative guy.

I have no problem talking with people I am comfortable with, but when it comes to some dominant or stranger guys, I turn to kinda serious and silent one. This group of friends i am hanging out, I couldn't manage to be close enough with them, I still struggle to talk freely, allow my self to be awkward and funny, but i still couldnt manage to do it.

Before talking my thoughts are like what if I say something wrong, what if they play around with things I say, i get a weird thought like what if they dont like when I am talking. I wanna get along and talk freely with everyone in my town, and when i move to big city for college, get involved in pua.

I made up my mind to approach every single day in big city, but since I am here in town for now, I wanna grow socially and have bigger circle. Any advice is appreciated.

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