Three years ago, I was one of the bottom-rung SMVers - freshman in college, played world of warcraft, obese, completely socially inept, no job. Now I've shed 70 pounds (from 330 to 260), read all the redpill material, learned to dress, and learned to actually talk to people. I have a job lined up on wall street after graduation, where I'm currently earning quite a bit of income over the summer.

However, when I meet a girl I actually want to LTR or fuck, I revert back to my bluepill ways. I start asking for permission when setting dates, I'm concerned about what she thinks, and I get very quiet in conversation. In other words, I know I'm being a beta - I've consciously absorbed material on game but haven't really internalized it.

I'm wondering if AskTRP has any advice on getting over this block. Really took the whole "if your SMV is too low, you shouldn't even bother" idea to heart back in the day and it's maddening. I'm 21 years old now, and sick of being a kissless incel virgin so I'm wondering if I should just go out, get a whore, and get it over with.