Hello Reddit,

16 Y/O Male reporting in. Real short blond hair, blue eyes. 5" 10'.

Recently I've committed myself to self improvement. I am taking cold showers, meditating and have taken up the challenge of NoFap. Starting to feel the benefits. There is just one problem...

Girls. Specifically in my area.

I'm good looking (don't call me shallow etc.), but my game/flirting and social skills can be very good, but here where everyone knows everyone or can see you talking to a girl, it is poor. I want to succeed so badly, and I know that is part of the problem. Part of me knows I need to let my life work, improve myself. I then see fit girls and just want to talk to them and flirt with them with ease. At my school doing that without my reputation taking a nosedive into a volcano is near impossible. I'm in the oldest year, so hitting on girls in the younger years in front of everyone would be social suicide.

I am listening to motivational speeches, tapes, have to NoFap emergency button on bookmarks and so on. Working out regularly. I know my situation with girls will get better. I just need to motivation and encouragement to continue to believe that. Somedays I do, somedays I don't. I hate how my confidence levels fluctuate like this. I got plenty of hobbies, smart. I do have traces of Aspergers; minute traces which have made my life awkward at times, though I have worked to the point it effects me little. Enough though.

I have only kissed two girls, and the last time was December 2014. I want to reach a stage where I can go out anywhere, talk to any girl, get her number/pull or go to a party and get with a girl like that.

My thoughts do appear cluttered, and they are. Any more information ask.

Thanks :)