I'm no quite sure how to put this but I have a pretty bizarre taste when it comes to being physically attracted to women of certain race. I'm Chinese and I don't find Asian women physically attractive at all even if they're Japanese, Korean, Filipino etc.. I also don't find black women attractive but for some reason I am okay with Indian women (even though they are considered Asian) and then I am attracted to pretty much any other race you can think of (white, Hispanic, middle eastern etc...)

Long story short, I have had a pretty hard time getting into a interracial relationships and what ends up happening is that when I finally do land into one, I become really beta because I am thrown into the mindset that this is something that rarely happen to me and then I subconsciously become more needy which drives the girl away.

So. In order to fix my problem, I just want to be able to attract and date enough women outside my ethnicity to the point that I don't see it as something scarce so I don't put them on this pedestal and screw things up.

Now the problem with that is that it is really hard for me to attract women outside my race. I feel that whenever I strike up a conversation or openly flirt with a women outside my race, they don't see me as a potential "mate". They'll say things like "You're cute for an Asian" but not just "You're cute". Even in my past interracial relationships, my ex's have told me that they did not expect to like me but I grew on them over time. This is totally different if I wanted to date Asians. Sometimes I just hit on other Asians to remind myself that I'm not ugly because it's really easy since they see me as a potential boyfriend material from the get go and I get their numbers easily.