Hey, I got to pretty good looking girls on the hook at the moment, it is obvious that they are both interested in me, but deep down I feel like I don´t deserve it and that prevents me from progressing any further.

I´m really afraid of disappointing them in the sack, since I lost my erection during my first time of trying to lose my virginity, which is why I´m still a virgin. Furthermore I´m very unsure about how my erection angle will influence my performance. (dick points straight up and I can hardly bend it down)

I feel like I wouldn´t be capable of maintaining a relationship because of this and I´m protecting my ego by not taking the dive and just try it out.

So basically my biggest issues are my fear of disappointing in bed and consequently word about it getting out into my social circles, since both of the girls are vaguely related to my social circle. I hate it that girls talk so much when it comes to boys and I feel pressured by it, because I think that everything I do and say is talked through by them and their friends. I know that 95% of the girls will talk about it with their friends about their sexual experiences with me and I´m dreading that thought. How do I get over it? I feel like I would need a woman with patience and whom I have a good connection with to gain some sexual confidence. But you don´t know if a woman will be patient with you until during sex (or the attempt of it), when the potential damage is already done. I feel like many woman nowadays will lose interest, when I´m taking to long to push for sex.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated