I started speaking to a girl at the start of the year. She actually initiated the relationship, I had spoken to her briefly in class expecting nothing to come of it but she later found my number through a groupchat and was constantly hitting me up first. I don’t know for sure but in my experience girls never hit up a guy just to be friends so I felt like these were signs she liked me. I did think she was attractive at the time and developed a soft spot for her but I never tried to pursue anything other than a friendship because at the time I felt I just needed to focus on myself. We spoke almost everyday since then for a couple months, at which point I think we had firmly frienzoned each other, until we slowly faded away. I’ve spoken to her recently and she kind of admits that she was busy and life got in the way. She also does mention that she valued our friendship, and what we had was rare because our male-female friendship had meaningful conversations and henceforth she’d be more intentional. I have a date with her lined up tomorrow and I’m thinking of asking her if she ever did like me. Not really sure what I want the outcome of that to be though. Part of me feels like I value her as a person and our friendship, and honestly I don’t really see myself being in a relationship or getting sexual with her. But sometimes I do get intense feelings for her, i hate it sometimes when she leaves me on delivered, I get jealous when I see her out clubbing with her friends, and sometimes I have thought of kissing her, not really sure what these emotions are.